UH-OH..........

that is this little boy's newest word. He is growing so fast, I can't believe how big he has got. My new nic name for him right now is Cheesey-Mac b/c he is always smiling and he is so fat. He is the sweetest boy ever. These are some pics from a party we attended a couple of weekends ago. I love,love,love Him!!!!!!

A Song for Me Today

Happy Anniversary To Me.
Happy Anniversary To Me.

Happpppy Annnniverrrsssary Tooo Meeee!
Happy Anniversary To Me.

Today I have been married for 5 years, And my husband forgot!!! It has been a wonderful 5 years with lots of good memories, and 2 very special blessings from God. I look forwarded to next 5 years, everyone says if you make it 7 years you will have it made. Can't wait to see what the next 5 years hold, maybe their will be more blessing, or maybe not, who knows? We will have to wait and see what they hold.

And my husband is working out of town with Creeddaddy so I guess he has an excuse for fogetting, or maybe not. So here is to me and some fun tonight on my anniversary.

Poem

My boss sent us this poem today by email and I thought I would share it with all of you.


Before I was a Mom,
I never tripped over toys
or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn't worry whether or not
my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.


Before I was a Mom,
I had never been puked on.
Pooped on.
Chewed on.
Peed on.
I had complete control of my mind
and my thoughts.
I slept all night.


Before I was a Mom,
I never held down a screaming child
so doctors could do tests.
Or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night
watching a baby sleep.


Before I was a Mom,
I never held a sleeping baby just because
I didn't want to put her down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces
when I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small
could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.


Before I was a Mom,
I didn't know the feeling of
having my heart outside my body..
I didn't know how special it could feel
to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond
between a mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small
could make me feel so important and happy.


Before I was a Mom,
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night
every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth,
the joy,
the love,
the heartache,
the wonderment
or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much,
before I was a Mom .

May you always be overwhelmed by the Grace of God rather than by the cares of life

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAYSON

This wonderful little person came into my life one year ago today. I am so blessed for God to have chosen me to be his mommy. What joy he has brought to our family. I could not have ask for a better baby. He is truely a blessing from above. He are some pics from his birthday pics.

Payson's First Haircut

So last weekend we took Payson to get his first haircut. I was very impressed he was really good, he only cried one time. He is really nosey so of course he had to check out every little thing the hairdresser did. Mattson was really good with his first haircut and every one since then has progessively gotton worse. So let's say I hope he does not follow in his big brother's footsteps with haircuts. So here are some pics of the exciting haircut. This weekend we are having his birthday pics done will post as soon as I get them.

1 MORE MONTH UNTIL..........

Payson's first birthday. He is 11 months today. I can not believe it has been almost a year since God bless us with this wonderful little (BIG) boy. Seems like when you want life to go by fast it doesn't and then when you want it to go by slow it flies by. He finally after 10 months got some teeth. And he is crawling around and pulling up on everything but not yet walking. Even though he is so big he is such a loving baby, and I think he is going to be a MaMa's Boy!!

First Post of the Year

So, where do I begin, it has been so long since I blogged, I think that I might of forgot how too. I know I was not very good at blogging anyway. Sometimes I have so many good thoughts but do not no how to relay them in writing. But alot has been happening and we have busier than ever. As soon as Matt got home from training it was Christmas, the New Year, Phillip's Birthday, Anna's Birthday, and of course Matt's new job and odd hours.

We have been so busy with everything, we haven't had much time to be husband and wife. I know that sounds corney but really I guess that what you would say. But anyway I think last week we had the worst week of our marriage yet! We managed to have two of the most horrible fights I think ever. Yelling, Screaming, and Slepping on the couch(No hitting even though it might had crossed our minds). I was really upset about it, did not know what to do to change it. Could not go take back the words said or unsaid. I thought how could it have come to this, every frustation, problem,of selfish desire was all put into one week of battles. And some where in all of this was two people who love each other but do not know what direction to take to solve any of it.

I would like to think we have perfect marriage but we do not. We are so different for the most part, which is good, b/c we usually even each other out. But sometimes we just do not see eye to eye. For note to myself, I am OCD about a clean house, I am a high strung person, and I guess I would say a am a perfectionist among many other things I have learned about myself from all of this. When things are not the way I want them I can not handle it. I really stress about all of these things. That said my husband it none all of these things. He is laid back, does not care if every little is perfect, and is a farely easy person about everything. Sometimes I think a little to laid back.

I am controlling and want things my way as many of us do. But this marriage is not always about me and what I want. It is not always about what my husband wants, it is about what God's wants for my marriage. And boy am I learning this the hard way. The bible says to "treat others as thall would want to be treated". That means your husband too. If I want to be respected even when I shouldn't be, loved when I am unlovable, then I must do the same for my husband. And boy last week I sure thought he was unlovable. Marriage is about giving in, scarificing, and submitting to each other. Even when you just rather stand your ground and say no this the way I want it.

I was reading a blog the other day and learned that if you want the people who you love, to love you and respect when you are having a moment or lots of moments, then you have to do the same for them. And maybe if you give them a little room to breathe, they will give you the same respect back. So this week I thought I am just going to go with flow, do all I can do and if something does not get done do not sweat it. We when I came home yesterday, Matt had got off early he had clean the house, picked up the mounting toys that are usually all over the house, and unloaded and loaded the dish washer. I was so surprised. I know the day would have been different because the devil himself tried to make a battle earlier in the day between us but rather take the bait, I said no if I lose it now, I will say something or do something I will reget that will change the whole day.